I draw a line where my Horizon starts. I draw a line where fiction meets reality.

I separate my goals, my everyday life from my dreams.  They have nothing in common.

I was young and innocent then, when I was little, and I thought everybody, all people where as good as I was, as innocent as I was that there was only good in the world, no evil.  I thought nothing could harm me, when I do good to all people around me.

How wrong I was…  My mother used to be generous with people; she used to GIVE and expect NOTHING IN RETURN.  We though we had MANY friends.  We had parties, dinners, fun.  Many prosperous years have passed this way. Life was simple then, and was rich in wealth.  We GAVE to people, to our “friends” to HAVE friends.  And we have them, all those years we gave them joy and entertain them in our house with parties, dinners, gifts.

Then come the years of plague.  These last few years.  Things begun to change. The economic situation worsened.  We grew older and older each day, with our illnesses, our bad mood because of our problems, and we carried the heaven on our shoulders….

THEY began disappearing one by one.  No more dinners with lobsters and shrimps and waiters, no more dancing parties in our house, no more precious gifts for THEM.  One by one LEFT.  We had a few friends afterwards, as the fingers of our one palm.  We thought they CARED.  However, with them too, we had to do them good everyday and to have fun.  In other words to …BUY them !

Serious illnesses came our way.  We desperately needed PEOPLE around us.  My mother was seriously ill and I needed someone to help me SURVIVE and support me, and JUST BE THERE.  I ask one of her  …“friends” to be with me in the hospital to keep me company as I was AFRAID my mother would DIE, and she told me she had booked an appointment with her SEAMSTRESS one month ago and it was IMPOSSIBLE TO POSTPONE it !

All went well with my mother’s health finally, and we were fine.  I made some serious decisions then. I ERASED COMPLETELY ALL MY PAST, we DELETED our FRIENDS WHO JUST USED my mother to have a good time and to help them …do their shopping…  and NOW WE ARE ALONE…. 

I chose some (a few) people to be around me now to support me and help me with my everyday life.  Some of them WERE FAKE AND LEFT these last few months, some STAYED, AS I KNOW THEM, REAL AS THEY WERE.  These are the best people and I am PROUD to know them, to be my FRIENDS.

So, now my Horizons are not so broad, they are narrow, and the path of life is too difficult to walk.  Of course, you can NOT walk ALONE, you need GOOD people BESIDE YOU, to GUIDE you and give you some of their LIGHT.

This moment I am speaking to you now, my Horizons are not so clear, it’s too dark at the end of the tunnel.

Nevertheless, everyday I hear one good voice from my few friends to help me REACH THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

Please be here with me,

Thanks for your support, I REALLY appreciate it !

Maria